yeah I'm sticking to roads and civilization
In some ways, this can be more dangerous than travelling in wilderness, but for your situation is probably a bit more prudent. If you find yourself near a wilderness area, say in Oregon, and want to hike a couple of miles in to see a waterfall, you'll likely be OK, so long as you watch out for hypothermia and the like as well.
I think some of the reaction here is that this board is oriented toward
wilderness backpacking, where folks head into mountain snowpack or desert heat and survive and thrive with no outside support system. It's not so much about wandering the roads and sights such as a European starving student backpacker. The thought of not posting a gear list is somewhat foreign to folks as that is often one of the first things new folks do, so others can point out unneeded items (to cut and drop weight) or missing items (which can preserve health, comfort, and perhaps life).
I noted the quote from Paulo Coelho. Remember him when times get tough. I've read a good bit of his material, back when things weren't working the way they "were supposed to" for me. He doesn't give any real usable advice except for one incredibly important, critical thing; keep your faith. This will sustain you through a lot.
BTW, I watched your 5 Facts video. I grinned to myself on many points. I enjoy anime too. Be sure to watch the classic
Fist of the North Star if you haven't already. Your tattoos will remind you of the importance of returning home, wherever that may be, to get centered again. Thus, they'll mean something to you for life, and I applaud you for getting something that meaningful at a mere 18. Lay off the Monster. Try crack; it's less powerful <img src="/forums/images/graemlins/shocked.gif" alt="" />(JUST KIDDING!! <img src="/forums/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />) As for contributing to society, you will eventually whether you realize it or not. Do it in a way that works for you and society both. (The earlier advice about joining the military isn't bad actually. I got more from the Marine Corps than I would have ever imagined.) But do what is right for you. You can't fake it. You'll know you're faking it, and so will everyone who works with you .
If after a few weeks you decide this journey isn't what you need to do, come home. Greyhound can be a real life-changing adventure all unto itself. But never stop your education in life. Changing plans certainly won't mean a failure in this endeavor. It may mean finding out some of the most important lessons in life.
Go forth. Be as safe as possible while still living a life worth living. Be young and foolish (so long as you won't hurt others or yourself).
Best of luck.