If I've misunderstood you, I apologize. I really want you to fit in here - it sounds like there's a lot you can learn from us (look how your pack list expanded), and we can always learn new things from anyone. I was just concerned that what appeared to me (and perhaps others) to be a confrontational style was going to end up with everyone disengaging from you, and you leaving the forums - neither of which benefits anyone.

And I was serious - if none of the five packs you're now considering turn out to be what you're looking for, take a look at the MYOG (Make Your Own Gear) forum here, and design and build your own. That's exactly how Gossamer Gear got started - the original owner didn't like any of the packs commercially available, so he built his own. For tents, that's how TarpTent started. It may be an option for you, too.